Friday, October 16, 2009
went sch today aft going chalet for past 2 days , drinking and mahjong-ing . actually didnt want to go sch today but he said he's at sch and he's gonna leave my things there so ended up going sch . reached there at 1plus . saw him smoking with others on the way up to class but didnt go over to say hi . cause i think he wont want to see me anw , so nvm ... anw , went up to get my stuff he left at my cupboard then went down to sit down and smoke outside mac . was thinking of quite a lot of things . but i guess i wasted my brain cells . it's alr so crystal clear that he doesnt want anything related to me anymore and he doesnt care . most importantly , i know for sure that he doesnt love me anymore . at least , thats what he told charmian . not even a bit of hesistation . just a direct maybe not and no . i really cant believe it . how can someone let go of a relationship so easily ? unless , right frm the beginning , he didnt love me at all . i was hoping he wouldn't give her that answer , though i roughly know that would be the answer . even the tiny little bit of hope was lost . i should really disappear frm his life alr , it's better for me to be gone for good i guess ... sorry for loving u .
o lvl science practical is nxt week . and following week is english and maths . HELPPPPP !!! i need help on maths and chem !!! anyone free to study with me for these few weeks ? i'm just hoping i can really concentrate on studying for my o's .
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