Monday, October 26, 2009
went to study again at tamp . hahas . im damn scared for my maths . i scared im gonna fail . hais . my head still hurts man ): anw , there's this very funny thing . he got prank called . and who's 1st person who comes to his mind ? ME ! LOL ! just because the guy said u recently just broke up with a girl right . like please , so many ppl know we broke up alr . anybody who prank calls u , its me who asked them to ? yeah right . u can choose not to believe . i dont care anymore . u can think whatever rubbish u want . since u said frm that day on we go our seperate ways . u dont need me anyway . u have so many girls by ur side uh . for ur o lvls i guess ure gonna fail cause u dont even bother to study . but who cares . who am i to care ? im just a nobody to u . why am i dwelling in the past ? im just making myself miserable . i can live perfectly well without u , maybe even better . ure just a jerk who enjoys flirting around . u will know how i feel soon enough basard (:
ahhh . tml's english paper alr , followed by tuesday maths paper . omg maths T.T maths suck ! i cant fail my o lvls !!! stressed stressed stressed .
1:17 AM
Sunday, October 25, 2009
studied at tamp and went serangoon for ktv today :D
anw , girl's 6th sense is really very accurate . now i realise those past 3 months when we were together , i was just living in lies . letting myself drown in ur lies . faithfulness ? all bullshit . im not always paranoid . i'm right about most things . i wont be sad , i know i wont . im not even crying alr . i guess all these made my tears freeze inside alr . pissed off ? yes . sad ? maybe . but tears arent gonna drop cause of u anymore . u're just a jerk who isnt satisfied with what u have . u urself know what u have done behind my back for the past 3 months . i believe in retribution . and u will have urs soon enough ... and bitch , watch ur back . u'll never know who'll be looking for u , since u're such a cheap girl . u shouldnt be working at t1 , u should be working at geylang instead . its much more suitable for u (:
i needa study . im not gonna be like him , not studying for o lvls and planning to fail o lvls . i'll be a much more successful person than him in the future . i'll prove to him , he was wrong to do all those to me .
fucker .
oh yesyes . i knocked my head against some stupid metal thing today and fuck my head was bleeding . now it has a huge bump and it hurts like hell . touching it accidentally or even just combing my hair makes it pain like shit ! ):
2:34 AM
Thursday, October 22, 2009
went to sch ytd . they were going through stuffs abt today's science practical . saw andrew on the way to sch . reached sch and saw him . didnt expect to see him in sch . anw , i wouldnt let him affect me anymore . i did fine without him . got back my pen , pencil all those frm him . thanks andrew for helping me take them back . so i guess there's nth more to talk abt between me and him alr . since everything's over , i'm not gonna dwell in the past anymore . since he doesnt bother and his heart aint with me anymore , i'll accept the fact . i have my own friends and own things to care abt , im not gonna let myself be revolving ard him anymore . he's just another guy who passed by my life . no big deal . anw , aft sch went tamp mart to find darl . did maths together with her till abt 6plus 7plus ? yup . then went home . supposed to go study again ltr but ended up , i fell aslp at home . hahs . guess im too tired alr . i've been damn tired recently and idk why .
going for my science practical ltr . im scared and nervous . i dont know if i'll be able to remember what i learnt . ahhhhh ! ):
9:20 AM
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
asshole , i wont forget what u did . i re gret meeting u , i regret knowing u , i regret steading with u , i regret everything . why the fuck did i know u ? i wasted my past few months on someone who doesnt fucking care . u'll see ... the big change in me . u'll regret . gooodbye sucker _l_
12:52 AM
Monday, October 19, 2009
met angeline at tamp mall today . aft that went to buy card for him and studied till abt 7plus . went home ate abit then fell aslp on the sofa . i had a nightmare of him with another girl . idk why am i dreaming of this kinda thing ):
tml gonna go amk find angeline study again .
2:14 AM
Sunday, October 18, 2009
i just found out u're in hospital , just finished operation ... somehow im scared to go visit u . do u even wanna see me ? what if u're agitated after seeing me ? really hope that u'll takecare of urself . no matter what , i'll be here ...
4:35 AM
Friday, October 16, 2009
Don't Go Away
Looking through your eyes
There’s nothing to hide
And you’re no longer mine
How could I survive
When you say goodbye
Why do birds still fly up high
Can’t stop the tears from falling
We used to be so fine
When you walk in to my life
I tried to reach out for you
Just to be with you
My heart is breaking
[Chorus]
Don’t, don’t go away
Baby don’t you know I miss you so
Don’t, don’t go away
I’ve never been on my own before
Wooh Oh
Can't you hear me just take me with you
So don’t, don’t go away
[Chorus]
Don’t, don’t go away
Baby don’t you know I miss you so
Don’t, don’t go away
I’ve never been on my own before
So won't you feel my heart beat once more
9:19 AM
hmm ...?
4:44 AM
o lvl science practical is nxt week . and following week is english and maths . HELPPPPP !!! i need help on maths and chem !!! anyone free to study with me for these few weeks ? i'm just hoping i can really concentrate on studying for my o's .
4:24 AM
Monday, October 12, 2009
perhaps everyone's right , i shouldnt put my everything into relationships . i'll end up hurting myself . wounds dont heal overnight , especially when it's been left to bleed for so long and no one can stop the bleeding . it really hurts deeply inside . u may not like me go drinking , u may think that im just trying to make u mad . but i'll tell u now , i'm not trying to make u mad . i went to drink . yeah . why ? cause i was feeling really bad . i felt like i wanna shout everything out , i wanna cry everything out . but i cant . i know when i was drinking ytd , i was shouting like mad and crying like some crazy woman . thats really the first time i cried till like that . crying and screaming at the same time . if u think that everything's my fault then so be it bah . previously when i tried to talk to u , u wouldn't even wanna talk . u just brushed me aside and told me there's nth for us to talk about . idk if it's over between us now or not . all i know is , the more i care the more i'll hurt myself . because it seems like u dont care anymore . maybe u care ? i have no idea . u've completely changed . u seem to care at times but other times , its like u just cant be bothered . what am i supposed to do ? what do u want ? what did i do wrong ? i'm confused . the only thing i know is that i needa study for my o lvls . maybe studying will keep my mind off u . i suppose thats the only way bah .
takecare of urself when im not ard u . dont smoke too much and drink more water . u're always coughing till blood come out . maybe it's time for others to takecare of u alr . perhaps i've alr been replaced by someone else in ur heart . im not anyhow thinking , its just a possibility . anyway , just take good care of yourself . those memories we had will stay with me ...
10:50 PM
Sunday, October 11, 2009
that song describes my feeling perfectly . hahs . i'll be fine . i'm not gonna bother u anymore . u'll live ur life and i'll live mine . we wont cross paths again i suppose . sch's just for revision now . and aft this 2 more weeks it'll be byebye . i'm not gonna linger in the past anymore . u aren't the guy i knew in the past . just barely 3months and u're acting like that alr . i've got nothing to say . i guess u wont even care anymore , since u asked me to give u a break , i'm gonna give u a break from me forever bah . u urself said u no longer love me as much as before . actually i should have trusted my 6th sense . u no longer send me home like before , no longer text me as long as before , no longer call me every now and then , no longer wanna meet me . all i can say is that u've changed . maybe ur heart is with someone else alr . i have no idea . i'm not gonna be weak . i'm not gonna cry and beg u not to leave . u said u've had enough , what about me ? 1 more hr to our 3rd month . oops . no more 3rd month . i think u're gonna find another girl soon eys ? since u have so many girls around u . hahaha .
i wanna be free for this week and not think about anything .
going out to drink now . guess what ? i know u dont care . BYEBYE ! :D
10:45 PM
Baby, I know the story,
I've seen the picture,
it's written all over your face
Tell me, what's the secret that you've been hiding?
And who's gonna take my place?
I should have seen it coming,
I should have read the signs
Anyway, I guess it's over
Chorus:
Can't believe that I'm a fool again
I thought this love would never end,
how was I to know?
You never told me
Can't believe that I'm a fool again,
and I who thought you were my friend,
how was I to know?
You never told me
Baby, you should've called me,
when you were lonely,
when you needed me to be there
Sadly, you never gave me
too many chances to show you
how much I care
Ooh, should have seen it coming,
I should have read the signs
Anyway, I guess it's over
Chorus
About the pain and the tears
Ooh, If I could,
I would, turn back the time
Ooh yeah I should have seen it coming
I should have read the signs
Anyway, I guess it's over
Chorus to fade
10:40 PM
Saturday, October 10, 2009
i aint feeling good . i dont understand why can he not meet me for almost a week and his smses are forever so short . and there're other stuffs too . why am i getting this weird kind of feeling ? stress ? i have no idea . i dont wanna have this feeling . its making me feel damn fucked up ):
3:04 AM
Monday, October 05, 2009
i realise im getting giddy more often these few days , and my headaches are back again ... like wtf . i hate this man . i dont wanna go have blood test again and i dont wanna go hospital ): im tired and worn out by everything ...
5:15 PM
i've seen thru people alr . all made up of lies . if u think im talking abt u , then i am .
i finally went to sch today but only had 1 lesson , geog . im lazy to type alr . shall post again soon .
5:00 PM
