Monday, September 21, 2009
idk whats happening between us . ever since that day when u went for songka last min . i dont blame u cause i understand and i know that its not ur fault . but there's this feeling that cant be described . i have to find ppl to accompany me last min . then when i was like happy to meet u at raiders alr , u told me tml's sentosa u cant go and u told me to go with ur friends . i know thats important and u can skip it but i dont really know ur friends and dont really have anything to talk to them about . wouldnt it be weird if i went with them ? then that night , u told me u were going to find ur friend awhile before going bee's hse for mahjong . but ended up tonning there and couldnt go for mahjong . i wanted to go mahjong not cause i wanted to gamble . i wanted to release all my frustrations on mahjong , but i didnt even get the chance to do that . i didnt mean to show any attitude that day . i just didnt want to talk . i was afraid that if i really did talk , i'll shout at u or sth . i ate that big tub of icecream to cool myself down too , but i guess its all still stuck inside all bottled inside me .
the nxt day , we both couldnt wake up to go out so we stayed at home the whole day . it was until at midnight , when i was hungry , suddenly u told me we were going to grandlink . it was like so far and i didnt plan to go so far . i still have to go back tamp the nxt day for my sister's birthday . then u told me wont be too late . in the end we reached amk at 6plus . by the time we were slping it was 7plus , 8 plus alr . when we were at grandlink , i had a bit of gastric alr . i think u didnt know yeah ? then when we were slping , u said some things . i think u should know what im talking abt . maybe im paranoid or sth . but im a girl and those things that happened previously , it hadnt completely gotten off my mind . it still lingers in my mind . saying those things will only make me think abt it again . hais .
went back to tamp bringing all my things back the nxt day , for my sister's birthday . thanks baby for buying the present for my sister . thought u were going for the dinner with me when u told me u're going tamp with me . but in the end u told me u're not going . even when my mum asked me to call u come for dinner , u refused . its not that i wanna blame u or anything . but just that , if i can go ur hse and talk to ur mum all that , why cant u ? she's my mum . as a girl's mum , it's natural for her to be curious and wants to talk to her boyfriend . and u thought i was giving u some kind of attitude ...
i dont want to either . its just that i keep bottling everything inside cause i dont wanna quarrel . i thought that by keeping everything inside , nothing will happen . little did i know that by doing that , im just making us drift apart . sometimes its not that i dont wanna tell u how i feel . perhaps its because i want u to figure it out yourself ? or perhaps its because i dont know how to say it out bah ...
just now u went back amk for some meeting , u told me u'll msg me aft the meeting . but aft 3hrs , then u msged me . i thought u were at meeting for 3hrs so i asked u , to think that u talked to me in such a pekcek tone . u went to eat aft meeting and u didnt msg me to tell me anything . hais . then u went sengkang . u told me u werent going to ton but u were still at sengkang at 2am . u told me u were going to take the last bus back . but ... hais . when i msged u , u replied and stop replying halfway . i dont even know what u're doing outside , dont know if u're at home alr , dont know if u've eaten , idk anything ...
hais , im having headache now but i cant slp ):
dont wanna cry anymore ....
4:12 AM
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
currently not feeling well >.< i'm getting headaches and giddy spells again . plus , i'm having stomachaches . thanks baby for bringing me to the doctors just now . ily loads . fucked up man . my family is fucked up , health's fucked up ): save me pls ? lols ! i'm having 2 days off frm sch , cause i dont take poa x) hahas . had geog prelims today . screwed up . i didnt have enough time to finish the paper . sadddddddddd ! i miss my baby . hehs .
2:32 AM
pictures as promised . sentosa with baby , xiaoboy and co . baby was so afraid of the water . HAHA ! look at baby's jiaobin in the last pic x) i loveeeeeeeee my baby !
1:40 AM
Thursday, September 10, 2009
been spending these few days at baby's hse . i can practically live there alr lor . hahas .
everything i need all at his hse liao exept for clothes >.< went sentosa last saturday . had lots of fun there . and took quite a lot of pics there . baby's jiaobin ! haha ! will upload pictures soon :D
went for his gan jie's baby full month on sunday . then met xiaoboy at sengkang there . then i kinda forgot where i went on monday and tuesday . stm uh . hees .
ytd went kbox with baby and xiaoboy . brother had tagging so we left at 7plus . then went back to amk . baby dota with his friends at raiders then went home aft that . baby left my cigg at dont know where and i ended up smoking reds ): supposed to meet his friends again aft we bath but they all went back home =.= went downstairs to buy cigg . i can buy sia ~ at 7-11 . hahas . went to eat then go home . baby dota again . zzz . then i was playing his hp game .
then now , baby's out with xiaoboy at tamp . leaving me at his hse to rot . lols . ah fuck im sick ): flu with on and off fever . h1n1 ? :o think not , hope not .
im hungryyyyyy T.T waiting for baby to faster come back and deliver food back . hehes .
6:35 PM
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
my dear sister . dont be sad alrights ? cheer up . just like what u told me the other time . guys aint worth it . why bother to be sad over others ? we live for ourselves , not for guys right ? rmb those times we used to sit at daddy's hse outside ? then talk cock all that . we always had problems with relationships then . now that daddy's inside , we're having problems too but he isn't here for us now . we must be strong . still rmb last yr , we sat outside daddy's hse seh . then i was laughing like mad and u were crying like siao . hahas . those stupid but memorable times . i know its difficult to keep urself happy . we always go through the same thing rmb ? our relationships always seem to have similar problems . aft those relationships we've gone through , we're still stupid enough to let ourself get hurt all over again . but girls are always like that . daddy's gonna come out nxt yr bah . must let him come out see us happy happy mah . he's always there counselling us . u told me to na de qi fang de xia , u also mah . we're alike in so many ways so we understand each other well . u posted a post for me the other time when i had problems in my relationship , this is a post back to u . cheer up kay sister ? nxt time meet u must see u happy lei . dont cause of him make urself sad like the past okay ? :D
4:55 AM
Thursday, September 03, 2009
had maths paper 1 prelims today . fucking difficult . i think im gonna fail ): hahs . tml gonna have maths paper2 and bio/chem dk which paper . damn shit sia . need to wait 3hrs in between for the nxt paper . wondering what to do within that 3hrs . hmms ? suggestions ? lols .
10:02 PM
Wednesday, September 02, 2009
happy birthday baby ♥♥ !
hope u had fun today (: today had celebrations for baby in sch . wanted to buy bday card but i didnt have enough time . sry baby . aft english prelims went to cut cake and threw cake at bengzhan . hahaha . damn funny . aft that baby went back tamp with me . saw carol sister at xcraft working , bought a barbell and went to watch movie with baby . hahas baby in cinema sibei cute sia . open marshmallow till so funny >.< i had fun today . was really happy spending the day with baby (:
happy bday to xiaowen and bengzhan too (:
1st sept
woken up by baby at 12 . bathed and prepared to go vivo . went to serangoon mrt to wait for xiaoboy and others then trained to vivo . went to find to carol sister awhile . turned out she was working at vivo too . hahas . so coincidental . went to eat sushi teh with them . wah sibei ex sia . everybody ate abit only and the bill was $75+ . supposed to watch movie but in the end didnt . aft eating , went bugis junction , street and iluma walk walk . then went back amk with baby . baby sooooooooo sweet man . was looking inside flower shop at the teddy bears and baby actually bought one for me . ily baby >.< then baby went for dota with ahb , yilong and others while i audi-ed and watched fated to love you . then bus-ed home :D was msging baby halfway and he fell aslp . lols . baby piggy ! did mask and i actually fell aslp while waiting for it to dry . hahas . mummy woke up at ard 3am and helped me peel it off . thanks mummy !
31st aug
happy birthday to me ! thanks for the birthday wishes frm everyone . hahas . thanks cousin , aunty and mummy for the angbaos . went to sch late today . hahas . thanks kaishi for the piglet :D aft sch , i had a complete surprise . i was shocked . he was holding a cake , all lighted up and walking into the class till right in front of me . he even gave me a bday card . i was so touched . thanks a lot . at night , went century square for dinner with mummy and sis . then ard midnight , cabbed down to bishan park to drink with him and his friends . patched with him today . was so fucking happy and kinda shocked too . hahas . there was this guy damn cute . vomitted so many times . lols ! waited for that guy to board cab then went to buy cigg and cabbed to baby's hse to slp . enjoyed myself today x) baby ily ily ily !
11:51 PM
