Sunday, August 30, 2009
hais . having severe headache and giddy spells . feel like vomitting too and idk why ...
you're having ur celebrations at amk and enjoying youself i suppose . have a happy birthday party alrights ? i'll be just fine all by myself ...
1:11 AM
Friday, August 28, 2009
everything's over now .
i guess im gonna live my life and you're gonna live yours . aft o lvls , i doubt we'll see one another again . good luck for everything yeah ?
7:12 PM
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
hahs . im having fever now ... 37.8 or 37.9 i think . and i still feel like vomitting sia . hais . i hate this . if only time could rewind back to those times when there were no quarrels , no cold war . but i guess that's kind of impossible alr bah ...
who to blame ? cant blame anybody but myself for this outcome .
12:10 AM
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
when will things ever go back to the way it was during our 1st month ? hais . im alr doing as much as i can to try and revive this relationship . however , you just act like you cant be bothered with it . these few days , im not the one giving attitude alr but you just dont care about me anymore . at least thats what i see . i dont want things to be this way . why cant we be like before ? days when we were so happy together . is it too late now ? perhaps the problem lies with me bah ? idk ... u asked me to think abt it , i thought abt it and msged you what i really think . and you just replied you dont know . you make me feel as if you're heart is not with me anymore . baby pls dont do this to me ...
oh i just realised i didnt eat anything today . hahs . dont even have the appetite to eat at all .
10:25 PM
6:00 PM
Monday, August 24, 2009
had school today . hais . the feeling of being ignored is so terrible . i dont like this a tiny bit , not at all . i cant believe you can actually ignore me for the whole of today . im beginning to feel that we're drifting apart . why baby ? i made the first move by talking to you nicely and you talked to me as if im your enemy . when im not being attitude , you just ignored me . do you know how terrible this feeling is ? when i was just trying to pull you away , you asked me not to pull you . i just dont want you to get into trouble , thats all . even when i talked to you , you dont wanna answer me . you can even laugh and enjoy yourself being so happy without even realising what was i feeling . throughout geography lesson , i felt like crying . i dont wanna cry in front of anybody so i held back my tears . i thought you would talked to me in the end . but , even till class ended you didnt even talked to me . you just went on your own . when i walked away , you didnt even bother to ask where was i going or anything . hais , birthday's coming and we're in cold war . i wonder if i'll have a lonely birthday this year ...
i guess i have to take panadol with alcohol again to put myself to slp again bah .
till now , not even a msg or a call frm you . i miss those times when we were happy together , hais . baby ily , do you ...?
5:42 PM
perhaps now i can slp peacefully
2:56 AM
we always go through the same thing . hahs .
thanks sis . i love you and takecare of yourself too alrights ?
2:30 AM
hahs , forget it ... its all my fault . everything's my fault . im in the wrong and you did nothing wrong .
gonna drink till drunk ltr . its easier for me to slp . since you wont bother anyway cause you dont care . tears arent supposed to drip down . i promised myself . over and over again , im breaking the promise i made to myself .
12:59 AM
Sunday, August 23, 2009
oh yeah , if you said you're always giving in , why bother saying sorry to me ? arent u saying im always giving u attitude ? hahs . dont give in if u're giving in like u're being forced to .
i dont need that . thankyou very much .
6:38 AM
you fucking selfish asshole . always asking me to go over and find u . asking u come tamp is like asking u to go to hell . u said u wanna be with ur friends . what about me ? i dont have friends ? always asking me go amk and find u . u have friends so do i . i dont have to spend time with my friends ? hahs . and talking to u is just like talking to the wall . i dont even know when do you understand what im saying and when you dont . think about what u do 1st before telling me i give u attitude . did i say anything when u talk to others in class and leaving me alone ? no i didnt . did i say anything during brk time when we all went to smoke and you went over to talk to liyi , maverick and liyi's friend ? no i didnt . did i say anything when i had to go back tamp alone ? walking all alone to the mrt station ? no , i fucking kept quiet . why am i giving u attitude ? because u fucking dont show me that u care . like i told u before the other time , sometimes i feel that u act like we're just friends . you said u'll come tamp once every week to go to sch together . i told u u'll only do this for a few weeks . in the beginning u even wanted to come tamp and go to sch together everyday . hahs . ppl say dont judge a book by its cover , i'll say dont rate how good a book is until u reach the ending because , u'll never know what the whole book is truely about . when i asked u on friday if u wanna go out , you said no , u told me u wanna stay at home cause u wanna save money for nxt wk , our birthday , and chiong maple . in the end ? u went out anw . today supposed go kbox in the end didnt go . who was the one who said he was going home ? it was only like 4plus ? in the end ? you went home at night . just to charge phone only and u went out again . if u think im unreasonable , for all i care , go ahead and think . sometimes i wonder , even though u said u love me , but do u really love me ? i dont even feel the care im supposed to be feeling . the way u talk to me and reply msges , it doesnt even seem like u're my boyfriend . it's like msges to friends or talking to friend .
ah fuck it ! im washing my hands off this matter alr . do what u deem fit . im tired of all this shit .
6:16 AM
Saturday, August 22, 2009
im sick of all these shit frm you .
seriously , i am .
3:14 AM
Friday, August 21, 2009
blogger is so dam irritating =.= the format is all wrong . zzz dont know wtf is happening . got my results for chinese o lvl ytd . i got a fucking B3 . im wondering if i should retake . lols . skipped english paper 2 mock exam on tuesday then had chem and bio mock exams on thursday . friday will be maths . fucking maths . argh . oh i was late for bio exams . HAHA . but luckily managed to finish on time . chem was like shit . i was crapping my way throughout the paper . i have a feeling maths will be worse ): i need a tutor for maths T.T
oh hey , guess what ? im back to mapling again . yes maple , that stupid lame game . but it kinda kills the sian-ness . hahas . since tml's the last paper for now , i think i shall zao home aft maths paper x) and maybe go tampines polyclinic for stupid blood test again . doc says i have to take another blood test to test for 3 other things . fucked up man . tuesday just took blood test and the doc actually said my blood count got lower again . the mark is still on my arm and its like blue-black ? o.o
crap im getting headache and giddy spells again . maybe i shd just eat my medicine and go to slp .
3:51 AM
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
today had mock exam for english paper 1 and geography . fuck it man , i didnt have enough time to finish writing my geography . wtf . tml will be english paper 2 . ah i think im going to be late again tml . hehs . anw , paper starts at 9.50 , so it should be alright .
hais . grandmother , i miss you . i miss those times when u cooked , missed those times when u nagged at me for watching tv for too long , nagged at me asking me to bath . ): i hate this feeling of being lost .
2:03 AM
Monday, August 17, 2009
aft 345687914234 months im blogging again . hahs .
currently studying for my o's this yr . hopefully i can pass it and get into poly nxt yr . my cousins came singapore for holidays and they're going to come here and study . living in my hse . so much things happened since the last time i blogged . tml's geography and english mock exam . pls let me do well for the papers .
1:59 AM
