Monday, October 13, 2008
2 days never go home alr siol . hahs . the day before went bukit gombak ton . then ytd went sentosa with daddy , mummy , annais , weiming didi and alot others . then aft that sth happened . met alvin at vivo . then went dhoby to take his stupid cigg then went back tamp . then ard 3+ go back home liao .
ar fuck ! my nose and shoulder got sunburn . D:
8:53 PM
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
dowan seh alr . lols .
everytime after seh the nxt day or nxt 2 days will headache then vomit . hahs . for now i'll stop bah . :D as long as youre happy , even if it hurts me , its okay . (: takecare of yourself and treat her well yeah ? i'll be alright . i'll force myself to get over u . i cried for loads of times cause of u . everytime i rmb anything about us , i'll cry for nth . how stupid of me eys . i'll be strong . im a strong girl . i can live without you .
8:56 PM
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
am at lan shop now . lols .
just now at night went to find daddy & mummy . then followed by going down to 100+ there find carol sister . then some stupid stupid things happened between she and casper again . then blah blah blah . in the end i seh . LOL ! again . ytd seh then today seh again . i think im going crazy siol . last time keep telling him dont seh dont seh . nowadays i keep seh . hahs .
i think im crazy man . i still wanna see him and go his court even though he's so bastard to me . but hais . if i dont go he happier , then i dont go bah . as long as he's happy jiu okay le . (:
dont even know when will be the last day i'll be see-ing those tags ... even though they are just tags , it still meant something to me . i know . im stupid . im stupid enough to still think about a guy even though he did such things to me and made me become this way . hahas . how crazy i am man .
love just sucks !!! x/333
4:00 AM
Monday, October 06, 2008
seh again ytd . dont know for fuck also . wanted to go his court but didnt . cause i thought of what she said . she said he doesnt want to see me there on his nxt court . if this will make him happier then so be it . even though i wanted to go but yeah i didnt . im very confused . everybody tells me to let go and move on . but its not that easy . idk why the fuck a 2wk relationship can make me feel this way . the feeling is like ... hais . the only time i really can not think about all these things is when i seh . im stupid . yeah i know . for a guy who's not even worth it , i go seh . waste money and harm my body only . lols . but besides doing this . idk what else can i do alr . i dont wanna continue this way anymore . can u tell me what to do ???? teach me how to forget . T.T this thing , my private o lvls nxt yr , the money that i need . )): how the fuck am i supposed to get the money if i spend money like this man . hais . fucked up . what am i supposed to do ? why is this happening to me ???
5:57 PM
Sunday, October 05, 2008
who's telling the truth ? who's not ? im confused . some tell me one story , the other tell me another . who am i supposed to trust ? hais . i miss him . why is this happening to me ? i dont wanna be sad anymore . i wanna seh . i wanna forget everything . i just wanna be happy . even for that short moment of time . i know he's not worth it . but i chose this path , i will go thru it myself . even if nobody will be there for me in the end , i dont mind . i chose this way . i know u wouldnt care because in your heart , u only have her . dont deny cause u cant lie to yourself . u yourself know the answer . there's no point in lying to me again . u told me u will slowly let her go . in the end ? hah . idk why am i writing about this again . i think im gonna go crazy soon . i wanna be like last time . but i know its impossible , really impossible ... hais .
everybody's living in world of lies and deception x/3
3:38 AM
Saturday, October 04, 2008
to somebody :
today u got bailed out . then she asked u to call me so that u can explain everything properly to me . yeah , i did get some answers . but after that very little bit of answers , all u said was dont know dont know . u maybe confused yourself also . but if youre confused , what about the others ? youre sorry . i know thats the only thing you can say , cause there's nth else u can do alr . i dont hate u . i only hate u for the things that u do . youre the first guy who ever really pushed me till i go seh . i really dont wanna think about anymore of this . i just wanna seh till i wake up frm everything . no its not your fault . i chose this path . i'll bear the consequences . i think till i dont wanna think . cried till i dont know what am i crying for alr . monday will be your court . even though we're no longer talking to each other . and i know u wont wanna talk to me ever again , but still , good luck for your court on monday .
i love you for the memories ,
but i hate u for the things that u did .
let memories be memories ; the past be the past .
maybe when u come out , you'll find the right one and maybe wont do such things anymore . goodbye my love-ED . x/3
12:51 AM
