Wednesday, September 17, 2008
this post will be dedicated to all my past memories with him .
those were pictures on 30th august , a day before my birthday . to think that he was so sweet to buy me a birthday cake and celebrating it for me and few days ltr he even bought 2 piglets for me even after we broke up . so sweet of him right ? but those were in the past yeah ? as much as i want the past to come back , it wont .
this was the day we patched back . it took me courage to trust that you would change for the better . i hoped that we would last long . but i was wrong ? everything was just a beautiful dream . all those promises you made were lies . all those beautiful lies of yours . your lies made me happy , but now , it made me disappointed . i dont understand . why did u do such hurtful things ? if you wanted to break with me to be back with your ex , i understand . but why ? why do you have to time us ? not only 2 of us . there are still others . what do you take us as ? your toys ? we have feelings too you know ? you know how heartbroken it is to know the truth ? its the same for her . we both cried like fuck for you . i dont know why am i crying for you . its only 2weeks . how deep can i fall in love with you ? i really dont get it . how can i cry for you so much ? i even got so stressed up i didnt know what i was doing . this is the 1st time i ever had this feeling . its so torturing . heart pain became physically pain . after thinking so much , i get headache . what for i think ? i dont wanna think about it too . but it just comes to my mind . i dont know the reason also . 26th will be your court . i know it will be the last time i'll be see-ing you if i go . i guess i'll say the last goodbye ?
on huifen's birthday bbq , at pasir ris , i did all these . for what ? cause i miss him . at that time , i didnt know he 4timed us . i only know he got caught by police . and i was worried like fuck . how stupid was i . there i was , worried for him and he 4timed me . hahs . im such a stupid brainless asshole . after this post , there wont be anymore pictures about him on my blog anymore . hais . its so fucking sad . how can a guy that treats me so good do such fucking things to me ? i dont get it . i seriously dont . <>
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