why did it end up this way ?
im feeling super down . i know things dont always go the way we want , and will always have bao ying . but isnt this abit too much ? its too much for me to handle . i dont wanna feel any hurt anymore . i've changed . im no longer a hongster , i dont play guys anymore . just as i became tiongxim , this happened . hais . why cant things be like last time again ? no , i wont force you or what . i know relationship this kind of thing cant be forced .
no matter what happens , i'll be there for you . even though you might not tell me anything , cause afterall , im not your stead anymore . its okay . i accept it . but accepting it doesnt mean that i can just let go like that . its not so easy you know ? though i hope that 1 day , we might patch , but if it wont make you happy , its okay .
i just want you to be happy . if you can find a better girl , go ahead . i'll wish you all the best . because i know , loving someone doesnt mean i have to have him . if youre happy , i will be happy for you too . even if youre gonna stead with another girl and not me , i wont make you come back to me whatsoever . just do what you like and do what makes you happy . i'll be here waiting for the day when you come back to me . if it wont happen , i'll always remember those happy moments with you . those memories will always stay in my heart .