Thursday, March 13, 2008
if only , time can just turn back .
if only , 1 day you'll call me and ask me for patch .
if only , we will be forever .
if only , you didnt break your promise .
hais . i want to be with you again . why cant we be together ? you said your feeling for me are still here . then why cant we be together ? all those no time and you treat me very bad . those are all excuses . if u have no time and you really love me , you can always find time for me . i dont mind going to find you even though we will be meeting for a very short while . at least , we're together . all those lies about you not gonna break with me . u swear urhs ? if u ever break with me i can go ard spreading youre a promise breaker and find how many ppl to whack you also can eys ? hahaha . you know i wont do that . you said i was too good for you . is it wrong to treat my own stead good ? huh ? is it ? if dont treat stead good , what for stead ? stead and treat him bad ? you said you will never ever break with me , unless i got no feelings for you anymore . all lies right ? i chose to stupidly believe you even though i know these promises cannot be trusted . im stupid ? yes i know . im stupid cause of you , cause of love . because of you , i changed from a hongster to tiongxim . and just because my friendster still put hnd doesnt mean im still a hongster . just because im still in hongster never die doesnt mean im 1 . even after we break , you brother still talked to me on msn , saying im hongster and all that . as if he hated me alot liddat . i really dont know what did i do wrong . hais . the things you promised , you broke them 1 by 1 . u said we may patch next time . is it possible ? hahs . no i dont think so . why am i sad ? why am i thinking about this ? i also dont know . i know im fucking stupid to be sad cause of a guy AGAIN . i promised myself not to cry for a guy alr . but ...
i never cried in front of any of my ex when they broke up with me . i only cried after they hang up the phone . but this time , i cried on the phone when he said break . i dont fucking know why . i talked to him while crying . why ??? hais . he wont know how i feel and he wont be reading this anw .
i just want to know what was the real reason for breaking with me . and i want him to know how much i miss him . ):
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