Sunday, January 10, 2010
have been working recently . so damn tired man . just got my pay today and it was fucking little . and omg , o lvls results are coming out soon . wondering how will my results be . hoping that i can get into the courses i want and all . at the same time , im scared that i will get bad results and everything i planned will be gone . so nervous man . tml going for shopping and steamboat . wheee ~ im tired . think im gonna slp soon . gonna slp like a pig today and tml i can wake up as late as i want to . x)
12:52 AM
Sunday, November 15, 2009
long time never update alr . finally o's are over and now , im hoping to get a job soon .
anw , this post is to you , you know who you are if you're reading this . this post is not a post to you as your whoever . its just about what i wanna say . ppl can ka jiaowei or whatsoever about me and you actually listen to them . im not the only one who noticed you changed . ever since you've been closer to your so called "brothers" esp 2 of them , everything about you changed . towards everybody who cares or cared about you . you treat everybody who truely cares about you like devils and those who influences you in a bad way the angel . if you're so affected by them , why not just let them live your life . since every decision you make concerns them . you have a new gf . so what ? i no longer care . you changed number , or so i heard . but so what ? it doesnt concern me . you blame my brother for telling me you're in hospital and bringing me there . if you're pissed of about it , why didnt you tell it right in his face instead of treating everybody like idiots ? you'll get your just desserts . you make yourself seem like such an angel and make me such a devil . your friends act like an angel in front of everybody but stab them in the back . what kind of friends are those . hahs . im not critisizing every single one of your friends but at least , some or most of them are like this . i know you'll choose to listen to them and take these all as bullshits . so be it . i cant control what you think or what you do . just know that whatever things you do , think before you act . if you think blindly following them and listening to them will do you good , then go ahead . if you think that they're the good guys and we're the bad guys , then fine with it . i cant do anything either . im me and you're you . we not related in anyway , not even as friends as you said . since you're the one who dont even wanna be friends , what else can i say ? you got your life and i got mine . you're not just a jerk and a bastard to me . you're also a fucking asshole who makes a fool of everybody . dont think that everyone's retarded .
just one sentance to describe everything .
you cherish your so called "brothers" more than anything but not your true friends .
learn to cherish the right things before you lose everything and regret .
6:07 AM
Monday, October 26, 2009
went to study again at tamp . hahas . im damn scared for my maths . i scared im gonna fail . hais . my head still hurts man ): anw , there's this very funny thing . he got prank called . and who's 1st person who comes to his mind ? ME ! LOL ! just because the guy said u recently just broke up with a girl right . like please , so many ppl know we broke up alr . anybody who prank calls u , its me who asked them to ? yeah right . u can choose not to believe . i dont care anymore . u can think whatever rubbish u want . since u said frm that day on we go our seperate ways . u dont need me anyway . u have so many girls by ur side uh . for ur o lvls i guess ure gonna fail cause u dont even bother to study . but who cares . who am i to care ? im just a nobody to u . why am i dwelling in the past ? im just making myself miserable . i can live perfectly well without u , maybe even better . ure just a jerk who enjoys flirting around . u will know how i feel soon enough basard (:
ahhh . tml's english paper alr , followed by tuesday maths paper . omg maths T.T maths suck ! i cant fail my o lvls !!! stressed stressed stressed .
1:17 AM
Sunday, October 25, 2009
studied at tamp and went serangoon for ktv today :D
anw , girl's 6th sense is really very accurate . now i realise those past 3 months when we were together , i was just living in lies . letting myself drown in ur lies . faithfulness ? all bullshit . im not always paranoid . i'm right about most things . i wont be sad , i know i wont . im not even crying alr . i guess all these made my tears freeze inside alr . pissed off ? yes . sad ? maybe . but tears arent gonna drop cause of u anymore . u're just a jerk who isnt satisfied with what u have . u urself know what u have done behind my back for the past 3 months . i believe in retribution . and u will have urs soon enough ... and bitch , watch ur back . u'll never know who'll be looking for u , since u're such a cheap girl . u shouldnt be working at t1 , u should be working at geylang instead . its much more suitable for u (:
i needa study . im not gonna be like him , not studying for o lvls and planning to fail o lvls . i'll be a much more successful person than him in the future . i'll prove to him , he was wrong to do all those to me .
fucker .
oh yesyes . i knocked my head against some stupid metal thing today and fuck my head was bleeding . now it has a huge bump and it hurts like hell . touching it accidentally or even just combing my hair makes it pain like shit ! ):
2:34 AM
Thursday, October 22, 2009
went to sch ytd . they were going through stuffs abt today's science practical . saw andrew on the way to sch . reached sch and saw him . didnt expect to see him in sch . anw , i wouldnt let him affect me anymore . i did fine without him . got back my pen , pencil all those frm him . thanks andrew for helping me take them back . so i guess there's nth more to talk abt between me and him alr . since everything's over , i'm not gonna dwell in the past anymore . since he doesnt bother and his heart aint with me anymore , i'll accept the fact . i have my own friends and own things to care abt , im not gonna let myself be revolving ard him anymore . he's just another guy who passed by my life . no big deal . anw , aft sch went tamp mart to find darl . did maths together with her till abt 6plus 7plus ? yup . then went home . supposed to go study again ltr but ended up , i fell aslp at home . hahs . guess im too tired alr . i've been damn tired recently and idk why .
going for my science practical ltr . im scared and nervous . i dont know if i'll be able to remember what i learnt . ahhhhh ! ):
9:20 AM
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
asshole , i wont forget what u did . i re gret meeting u , i regret knowing u , i regret steading with u , i regret everything . why the fuck did i know u ? i wasted my past few months on someone who doesnt fucking care . u'll see ... the big change in me . u'll regret . gooodbye sucker _l_
12:52 AM
Monday, October 19, 2009
met angeline at tamp mall today . aft that went to buy card for him and studied till abt 7plus . went home ate abit then fell aslp on the sofa . i had a nightmare of him with another girl . idk why am i dreaming of this kinda thing ):
tml gonna go amk find angeline study again .
2:14 AM